Why blog - Why now?

                                                                       

I've been telling select people that I've started a blog; almost like a kid that wants to show off a shiny, new toy. It still makes me smile each time I say it; my smile is laced with excitement and tinged with embarrassment-just being completely honest, cause let's face it, if I can't bare honesty to the world wide web, albeit with anonymity, who can I be honest with! :) The idea of starting some sort of positive, weekly email originated from a trio of my closest friends, as we are rarely together in the physical, we wanted to send each other uplifting words in spirit. I have been a little reluctant to share my thoughts and ideas in a public venue out of fear; fear of rejection, fear of grammatical errors, fear no one would relate...the list goes on. This is why my excited blogger smile held the flicker of embarrassment in the curved corners, fear. I believe fear is the culprit of my self defeating behaviors. It's fear that settles in my stomach every time I start a new contract, fear that makes me want to run the other direction when I walk into a room full of strangers, and fear has guided my choices down the same ole road, time and time again. I have lived the greater part of my life in fear, desperately trying to win the acceptance and approval of others - I promise you, this is an exhausting way to live! 
After posting my first blog, I received an email from a dear friend. The email touched my heart; my embarrassment, my fear, instantly gone. The email served as an affirmation that I was moving along in the right direction and I am thankful for her confidence. One of the ways I learn and grow is through interaction with others. I am actively and passionately seeking out the best year of my life, this blog and any other avenue is an honest attempt to achieve success. For the last several years, I've been singing this same song and every year seems to be a new version of the last, like I'm stuck in Groundhog Day. The new variable I've added to the equation is change; behavior modification, sounds easy enough, right? Well for me, the last few years, it hasn't been very easy. I've partnered with a couple others on the same journey as I; having an accountability partner is a very important component to my success. I hope to grow this site into an interactive, creative, safe place for us to discover and evolve ourselves - Or it will be a really kick ass journal!!

Are you willing to sacrifice who you are, to become who you want to be?

Love & Light